I just wanna be something

I'm up at this time, 1 am thinking bout crime ain't spending shit not a dime, i cannot lie
Everytime that i have tried
My patience small as a fly, give up and cry, curl up and question my life, why am i even alive, why do i try, why do
I breathe in and fight, struggle to keep on with strife

Why do i try x4

Why do i go to these lengths, cover myself in the paint show that i'm real, blm that i can feel, i am a human surreal
The vision i paint for the future at this state, i cannot escape my fate, yeah

I'm always up in my room, acting a fool like a goon, arguing with
Family, might break apart from the tree, need to be free, something is still haunting me, following me like a beast

Feeding off of my energy why do i feel like a freak, feeding off me just like a leech, want to be part of the group, gun me down just like a troop, you let me hang no path to choose, egotistical and rude, not my fault i dont like u

Got prblms well damn me 2