I Hoped You’d Die

I was sober once
Yeah baby I’m for real
But I been home for months
And I got time to kill
And I could open up
But would you like me still
Cuz I been known to trust
And now I fight to feel

I think we’re close enough
But really I can’t tell
So if I chose to love
Would u provide for real

Barrier I set up as a defense
Scarier when head up in the deep end
Said you’d never leave
Really thought that that was decent
That’s ok with me
This shit changes with the seasons
It was never deep
Really just needed a reason
Why..

I don’t know where this could lead
In the cold air, empathy
It goes on and on
I never noticed it
And when it’s gone, it’s gone
And I get no revenge
And it gets hard to talk bout what I’m closing in
And it’d be hard to stop if we’re to open it
Pain in my brain
I just hope it ends
And it’s raining again
Let the snow descend..
Cold December
Been a snowy winter
I sniff blow when with her
Helps to hold the liquor
Said you’re no pretender
What u showed me differs
What the old me pictured
Now I know won’t fix her

I hope you die
I hope you lose yourself somewhere along the way
If you survive...
I hope u move to hell, so we can’t talk again