I Hope You...

Could never be down whenever she was around me
Thought it was cash but chick ruled everything around me
Cream, she was the girl of my dreams
But now I lay down in bed and all I do is scheme
Of how I could maybe get her back, but that's my problem right
Fall in love too fast and quickly then get up out it right
And I'm always fine for a few months but my mind always comes around to thinking she was the one
I guess I never properly got over shit
Hiding all emotions cause eventually id be ovеr it, right?
I guess not
Love is a weird feeling
I stay insеcure never thinking that I'm enough
So problems add up and eventually my mind says to end it before she has a chance to give up
Highs would always be so high and maybe the lows weren't even that low
I just freaked out and didn't want to find myself hurt and alone
In the end. I was anyways, but I did it to her first
And that wasn't ever fair cause I'd come back to her life worse
And what the fuck is wrong with me
If I really cared about her I'd finally move on
But it feels every move without her was a move wrong

Nothings gonna change if I don't act on it
But if I really loved you I'd never act on it
I just wish I could talk to you and apologize
But its been so long and your sun will still rise without me

24 hours feels like it could go by in a matter of seconds
Matter of time feels even faster without you by my side
You felt unimportant me chasing to play it with the legends
And I can never have you back so I've learned my lesson
I hope you don't listen I say it and know that I mean it
No way to redeem it my actions certainly were not seamless
I can do more to prevent this but I will admit this
I know I won't block you to make sure you don't hear this

Nothings gonna change if I don't act on it
But if I really loved you I'd never act on it
I just wish I could talk to you and apologize
But its been so long and your sun will still rise without me