I hope one day i’ll be fine

I'm adrift in my head again
I’m adrift in my head
I've been battling with demons from a young age like I grew up playing doom
Still sweeping all my problems under the rug in my room
Praying every day that this will all be over soon
Please be over soon
I hope my guardian angel hasn't given up on me
And she’s just on break, vaping
Soon to return and grant luck to me
There's memories that I really wish wouldn't have stuck with me
But it seems like they'll forever be there just to fuck with me
I only have a few friends but that's enough for me
And it means the world to me that they enjoy my company
I had a girl that was in love with me
But then she disappeared and left me with the sound of rustling leaves
So now i'm writing lyrics about sadness
Fraught and all alone downing lyrica tablets
I try and peer through the blackness while I veer into madness lying here on my mattress
Often times I wish I wasn't so weird and low status
All I wanted was to fit in with the peers in my classes
But we don't always get what we want
Now I guess I’ve gotta write my story with my least favorite font
On the wrong end of the bell curve
Within my IQ bracket, there’s an eclectic mix of thugs, druggies, and video game addicts
They told me learning just takes a little bit of practice
But still I couldn't hack it
I should be kicking all my habits
But I think I’d much rather be drinking from my chalice
I think I'll be fucked until I'm stiff and in a casket
Stiff and in a casket, yeah
I hope one day I'll be fine but until then it’s hard to get by
I hope one day I'll be fine but until then it's hard to get by