I Hope I’m Wrong

I hope I'm wrong
I hope you're up there after all
I keep your diamond ring on my necklace
I don't keep much close to my chest
Poured a little bourbon out for you
Got scolded on the porch for wasting booze
Said it was something kids my age do
Dan got up, poured some too

Choked up riding in the backseat
Dad at the wheel staying tough, if you ask me
He's always at his best when the blade's right up against his neck
When the shit goes wrong man comes correct
It gets no better than the way you went
Money in the bank, sons around your bed
I know I should feel lucky, but I'm just feeling spent
Last thing you said was you'd be watching out for me, and we both know that I don't believe that to be true
String of beads to me
Rosary to you

We were young in different circumstances
Had the same set of questions, all different answers
And if we could've traded places, maybe we'd exchange whole lives
Maybe you'd be here in lights and tears, and I'd have been the bride
Raising kids with my hair swept up and my goals pushed to the side
Making do singing lullabies

I hope I'm wrong
I hope you're up there after all
I keep your diamond ring on my necklace
I don't keep much close to my chest
Poured a little bourbon out for you
Got scolded on the porch for wasting booze
Said it was something kids my age do
Dan got up, poured some too

I hope I'm wrong
I hope I'm wrong
I hope I'm wrong