i have my heart in a knot

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I'll probably never come back
I'll never see you again
I never had any friends
You were my first and my best
I'm on the rails with a pen
I'm writing down what you said
And wondering if I'll die
Or if I'm already dead
You're living free in my head
My fingers bleed on the frets
I wonder if I should talk
I tell myself I should stop
I overthink a lot
I have my heart in a knot
I tend to go silent, don’t know what to say
I'm running away, I'm lost; I know I’m a stray
I’ve got no home, I've got no place to come back to
Don’t say that you had to, I’m way too attached to you