[Verse 1]
I had my fun 'til my fun turned into
Humiliation and a suicide scare
I try to lead with love, but I hurt everyone
That gets close enough to show me that they care
I cry alone in my room or out back
With my finger down my throat, expellin' shame I can't bear
Every day I say I'm done 'til I see that settin' sun
But tonight I'm gonna fight white knuckle
[Verse 2]
I lost my passion and my looks
My stomach's turnin' like a brook
I told my best friend I wanted to buy a gun
I don't know how I wound up here
Feels like I lost so many years
Spend all my time sayin' sorry to everyone
(Sorry)
[Outro]
I don't know how I wound up here
The smallest thing brings mе to tears
And once they'rе gone I am completely numb
I don't know how I wound up here
I resent the insight of life experience
All these lessons only bring me harm
All these battles only leave me scarred
Oh, how I long to go back to the start
Oh, how I long to go back to the start
i had my fun/back to the start was written by Field Medic.
i had my fun/back to the start was produced by Gabe Goodman.
Field Medic released i had my fun/back to the start on Fri Oct 14 2022.