I Had It Wrong

Where do you go when all the cards are stacked against you?
Old faces, different names, pretending they don’t know you
It’s not fair, September never felt so unforgiving
Had I known the truth - was every sign just so forbidding?

Heartbreak at twenty three brought self discovery
Found out what’s left to believe through my insecurity
Hindsight’s irrelevant, the past can keep her misery
This isn’t for you - I wrong this to tell myself

I had it wrong - trust me, I know
It is not for the best
I thought that I knеw but I made my mistakes and I can’t take thеm back
My pride’s on the floor, I don’t want it back

It’s not you I miss, it’s my innocence
So keep my name off your tongue, don’t reminisce
I gave you all I could, fought for your greater good
Sleep in the bed that you made being the neighborhood whore

(This isn’t for you, it’s just to tell myself)

Well I tried my best to show you who I am and more
Two years, I hardly knew you like words washed right off the shore
You don’t cross my mind at all now, I stopped believing in your ghost
Well fate had its way, we moved from pillar to post