I Grew Up

[Verse 1]
I grew up where you can't be black and local
Where raising your voice is just a waste of vocals
Too many prisoners...
No moguls
Where the so-called natives, a handful in total
Where they live by the motto ''what you waiting for?''
Where everybody in the race for more
Most of 'em came to Sweden to escape a war
Life's a bitch, but I'mma rape the whore
Where harassments and random inspections are carried out
Based on your name on complexion
Remember growing up...
And what I wanted most...
Was to be viewed as one of them...
Not one of those
People from thirty nations live in my building alone
This where we grew up
How come we ain't feeling at home?
That's really not the problem here
That's my excuse for not handling issues i was facing
For a lot of years

[Verse 2]
See...
Every night I was praying...
Though I was feeling hopeless
I was always smiling so you would never notice
You're just scratching the surface of what you barely know
I need a shrink bad...
But I'm scared to go
If I explained it to you...
Would you believe me?
A trusted guardian who didn't want to feed me
Based on the fact...
I wasn't full black
Psychologically I switched off and pulled back
And my stepdad don't hear too much of a nigga
Don't see the reason for it, but i love a nigga
I mean, how dare he betray my mother
Momma ain't pregnant now i got a baby brother
My mind-state was always move on...
Tough luck
I'm twenty something now - successful and fucked up
I can no longer keep this hatred inside
Mom, i think it's time to finally take your advice