I Gave My All

Ya know... it's kinda like... you've been goin' in circles
And every road you take leads you back to the same place
So, the faster you try to go the faster you find yourself back at the beginning
Listen

[Verse 1]
Panic attacks, I had nine yesterday
I can't eat, I take a bite and throw the rest away
I can't write, these are the lyrics that my stress conveys
I'm yellin' at the top of my lungs lettin' it resonate
My present state is really anything but stable
I'm grateful for any sanity that's left to help me stay cool
Calm and collected pad and pencil on the table
'Cause I'm writing you this letter and I'm already on page two
Though I know you'll rip it up when you receive it
Kinda like you did my heart, that's the reason it's barely beatin'
Hope you read this 'cause I really need someone that's here believin'
We were tighter than my jeans and now it seems we're rarely speakin'
But I keep on keepin' on as the one that they been sleepin' on
Been on my feet so long, that's why you see my sneakers worn
Despite the potholes, obstacles and beepin' horns
Get used to me, guarantee you'll never see me gone

[Chorus]
I've traveled down this road so many times that I don't know
Why I keep comin' here and will I ever find my way home?
I gave my all, I gave my all, been movin' all this time
I'm still goin' 'round in circles always searchin' for a finish line

[Verse 2]
So, now I'm chillin' here just starin' at my phone
I'm hopin' that you'll call me yet I'm certain that you won't
I'm lookin' 'round the room to find somethin' I haven't thrown
In the fireplace along with every photo that I own of you
'Cause I don't like how you mock me in the images
It's kinda toasty in the fire now, isn't it?
I know I'm talkin' to a picture like an idiot
But the fact that you don't answer back's a little inconsiderate
When I was a little kid my teacher said I fidgeted
In my chair and wouldn't sit still for just one minute
And nothing's changed, I'm admitting it, I never was the prettiest
I never was the fastest of the strongest or the wittiest
Countless times I've gone and trusted all the wrong people
I'd like to think it's 'cause I see good in others and not evil
But when I'm down and out the same ones stop even
Carin' 'bout my ass, the bastards with they plots schemin'

[Chorus]
I've traveled down this road so many times that I don't know
Why I keep comin' here and will I ever find my way home?
I gave my all, I gave my all, been movin' all this time
I'm still goin' 'round in circles always searchin' for the finish line

[Verse 3]
Wasn't I inside? How'd I wind up in the forest?
I musta lost it, could be miles from my apartment
I always end up in familiar places facin' darkness
My heart is ready chargin' but my head is yellin' caution
Can't remember how I got here, come on, Whitney, think
I'm not on any drugs unless they slipped 'em in my drink
I left my medication in the kitchen by the sink
This world I'm in can only be existing in a dream
But it seems too real and vivid, maybe I'm not livin'
I musta died and be inside the afterlife I'm given
I'm tryin' every trail but they don't leave me nowhere different
Maybe fate is just a product of our own decision
But I keep on keepin' on as the one that they been sleepin' on
Been on my feet so long, that's why you see my sneakers worn
Despite the potholes, obstacles and beepin' horns
Get used to me, guarantee you'll never see me gone

[Chorus]
I've traveled down this road so many times that I don't know
Why I keep comin' here and will I ever find my way home?
I gave my all, I gave my all, been movin' all this time
I'm still goin' 'round in circles always searchin' for the finish line