I don’t wanna think about that

I left in a hurry
You went home to Missouri
Took the summer off to figure it out
So I built a couple chairs
And I bleached my hair
I guess I’m really just a dumb blonde now

I’m self-destructive, I know
But that’s the way that it goes
When every night you’re stuck in front of a screen
So I tried cutting out beer
As if somehow that would cheer me up
But I still can’t quit the nicotine

Well is it pain
The reason I knock myself out every night
Is it shame
The reason I can’t make love cuz it don’t feel right
Am I insane
For pushing away the only girl who ever had my back
Well I don’t wanna think about that no

Well last night I had a dream
Where it was just you and me
And I was playing you a song that I wrote
You said I don’t like that one
And I don’t like what you’ve become
Cuz every sentimental line is a joke

You know the funny thing was
I woke up crying and not because
I suddenly could see through the noise
It’s more pathetic, you see
Cuz in complete honesty
Don’t know the last time that I heard your voice

Well is it pain
The reason I knock myself out every night
Is it shame
The reason I can’t make love cuz it don’t feel right
Am I insane
For pushing away the only girl who ever had my back
Well I don’t wanna think about that no

I’m just a leaf on the water
I lose myself in the stream
I have nobody to blame but me

Well is it pain
The reason I knock myself out every night
Is it shame
The reason I can’t make love cuz it don’t feel right
Am I insane
For pushing away the only girl who ever had my back
Well I don’t wanna think about that no
I don’t wanna think about that
I don’t wanna think about that no