I Don’t Wanna Go to Parties

I don't wanna go to parties
Fake another conversation
Try to make all my friends happy
Try and convince them that I’m healing

I don't wanna go to parties
Avoid the guy who gets to touchy
Sober up before the after
Don’t try and take me to the hills, yeah

But I don’t wanna sit at home
‘Cause then it’s like you won
Better that I convince myself that I’m having fun

So I’ll lose myself in the moment
Do some shit I can’t undo
Lose myself in the views and
He’ll probably look just like you
‘Cause evеn though you’re the habit I broke
Guеss I’m still in recovery mode
All this smoke and mirrors
Still can’t shake this feeling

I don’t wanna go to parties
Call out of work ‘cause I’m hungover
Thought I’d grow up when I got older
Guess I’m still doing the same shit, the same

I don’t wanna go to parties
Kiss a guy I won’t remember
I only did it to feel better
Wonder if you’re doing the same shit the same shit

I don’t wanna play this game
‘Cause I’m playing alone
Do anything to convince you that
I’m out on my own

So I’ll lose myself in the moment
Do some shit I can’t undo
Lose myself in the views and
He’ll probably look just like you
‘Cause even though you’re the habit I broke
Guess I’m still in recovery mode
All this smoke and mirrors
Still can’t shake this feeling
I don’t wanna go to parties

I’ll lose myself I can’t undo
I’ll lose myself he’ll look like you
I’ll lose myself I can’t undo
I’ll lose myself he’ll look like you

So I’ll lose myself in the moment
Do some shit I can’t undo
Lose myself in the views and
He’ll probably look just like you
Even though you’re the habit I broke
Guess I’m still in recovery mode
All this smoke and mirrors
Still can’t shake this feeling
I don’t wanna go to parties