i don’t mind floating (epilogue)

[Verse 1]
I've hated myself for as long I've known
And while my body grows, I still feel small
I've hated eating since that boy told me
Nobody will love me with a body like this
And while I cuff on my wrists and heat on my legs
I'll cry 'bout the things that just make me feel less than
Everybody else I've ever met
Think 'bout when I took fifty pills to try stay asleep
Woke up, was my mother and sister with me, but
Everybody else was gone

[Chorus]
So I'm crying 'til I sleep, fake reality
I don't mind the floating
But I'm terrified of going under
Not going under
So I'm crying 'til I sleep, fake reality
I don't mind the floating
But I'm terrified of going under
Not going under

[Verse 2]
You've been here before
In the companionless cabin
Doors bolted shut and windows boarded up
Not all cracks need to be covered
Through yours peer platinum paradise, yet
You set your alarm for midnight with an enthusiastic nervousness on whether or not lightning strikes
As the evening grows deeper, the darkness erects the light
Those eyes you once felt now dwindled, blind
To say something wrong was never the issue
The feeling itself is what's always placed us in the middle of the sides others are stuck on
We don't need to make understanding a lifelong obligation
Elysium is a gentrified cemetery and contentment is no longer the goal
We'll walk to the desert one day at a time
And when it's all said and done, we'll feast in the forest
Before you lost yourself on the bathroom floor that day
Now these nights are no longer the same
I know you don't mind floating
But just don't float away

[Chorus]
So I'ma cry until I sleep, fake reality
I don't mind the floating
Though I'm terrified of going under
Not, not going under
So I'ma cry until I sleep, fake reality
I don't mind the floating
Though I'm terrified of going under
Not going under