I Beg You

I fall now through the air so slow
My head aches from the pain below
I see them, yeah, they smile and taunt
As they beckon me to just jump off
What I don't get, yeah, is why I hurt
Try to wait it out, but it just gets worse
As I take the last step forward now
Feel the wind call as I just look down
Then I wake up in this bed again
Thought I'd died there, I guess it's in my head
Just repeating, yeah, these awful thoughts
But I won't go 'cause I'm too scared of
Coming back now and it being worse
We're in hell here, we just repeat this curse
Feel neglected, we don't have a spine
I can't find a home to just call mine
So please just let me not wake up
I beg you, yeah, for this to stop
This cycle of constant self-neglect
It's my fault, but how do I change it?
And I don't know, maybe I need rest
Just a break from the pain that's in my chest
Will I wake up one day with a smile?
Say I'm happy just to be alive?

Oh, I never thought that I would be back up against the wall
Living on borrowed time for years, I been fighting against the clock
Against the odds I seem to stay alive
Maybe it's a blessing from the heavens or just sheer luck
Lately I been stuck
'Cause if I got a greater purpose I been fresh out of direction
I don't know which way to head
Maybe I'm better off without one
Recently I been stressin' about my sleep, I cannot function
Mama say I'm here for a reason, I'm self-destructing
Still looking for the magic pill to fix my problems
Allergic to accountability, can you pull me right out?
I'm wasting all my time, I'm running out of options
Can I kill the part of my mind holding me back? Oh-oh-oh
So maybe one day I'll get my life on track

So please just let me not wake up
I beg you, yeah, for this to stop
This cycle of constant self-neglect
It's my fault, but how do I change it?
And I don't know, maybe I need rest
Just a break from the pain that's in my chest
Will I wake up one day with a smile?
Say I'm happy just to be alive?
So please just let me not wake up
I beg you, yeah, for this to stop
This cycle of constant self-neglect
It's my fault, but how do I change it?
And I don't know, maybe I need rest
Just a break from the pain that's in my chest
Will I wake up one day with a smile?
Say I'm happy just to be alive?