I am nothing

Ever since I lost you
I've been trying to dream
Of something better
Though it seems impossible to do
When you embody the essence
Of a fire in december

How am I to get better
When my heart is on a tether
Every time i go out
I can smell you on my sweater
I don't want to go on
If we'll never be together
I just want to die
Replay our memories forever

Cuz without you I am nothing
This life means nothing
Your pulling on my heart strings
And running
Cut the line please

Ever since I lost you
I've been trying to dream
Of something better
Though it seems impossible to do
When you embody the essence
Of a fire in december

Is this real
Or is it a dream
I can't tell
But it would seem
The more I care
It becomes a nightmare
I've been going through hell
Counting these sheep
Maybe when I die
I'll wake up
Laying next to you
No makeup
I may have high hopes
For the breakup
But
I'm just trying
To keep my head up

Cuz what if i die
And there is really nothing after this life
Maybe i'm the only thing that exists
If thats the case then why do i try

Ever since I lost you
I've been trying to dream
Of something better
Though it seems impossible to do
When you embody the essence
Of a fire in december