I am my own hell

[Verse]
I am my own hell
And I have made my home in a place no one ever goes
Always be alone
Learning all kinds of tricks
How to drain the blood out of my face
Spend a summer in bed so everyone will think that I am dead
When I come back to you it'll be on my hands and knees
I'd be lying if I said
I didn't dream sometimes
About what it would be like
If I didn't have this life
My legs start to shake when it's my time to leave