I Am

I won't give up
And I refuse to sit down
I destroyed myself a thousand fucking
Times to turn this shit around
I am, I am
I'm so ashamed I want to die
What you passed down: I'm horrified
But I'm awake and I'm alive
Yeah I'm awake and I'm alive
And I won't be afraid anymore
Not afraid anymore, not afraid
I am, I am
I am nowhere near finished with you yet
I am nowhere near finished! I am, I am

I'm alive!
And I finally figured it out
Self-loathing, shame, self-doubt
It was you, it was you, all along
And it's so fucking wrong!
I was blind, so fucking blind
You were never on my side
I held you up so fucking high
But now I realise

This ends with mе
And I'll do better than you
I won't let anyonе else go through
What you put me through
And I am, I am
I'm dragging myself by my fingernails
If this is it, then this is hell
Sometimes it's like I'll never be well
Sometimes it's like I'll never be well
But it won't always feel like this
Won't always be like this
Won't always feel like this
I am, I am

I'm alive! And I finally figured it out
Self-loathing, shame, self-doubt
It was you, it was you, all along
And it's so fucking wrong!
I was blind, so fucking blind
You were never on my side
I held you up so fucking high
But now I realise

I am nowhere near finished
With you yet
I am nowhere near finished:
I am, I am, I am
Won't always feel like this
Won't always be like this
Won't always feel like this
I am, I am
I am nowhere near finished with you yet
I am nowhere near finished:
I am, I am
I'm alive!