Hurts To Feel

[Verse 1]
See now I've come to realise
That it hurts to feel inside
It fucking hurts to be alive
Can’t trust my thoughts, my self
My mind is hell
Trynna come to terms with my
Lack of love, don't wanna die
I don't wanna live this lie
Can’t trust my thoughts, my self
My mind is hell
You see the the picture that I paint
Can't tell this happiness is fake
I feel so dead when I'm awake
I crumble underneath this weight
Don't know what's wrong with me today
Tell everyone that I'm okay
I think I'm sick, they don't believe
Your advice doesn’t work for me

[Verse 2]
I won’t allow myself to smile
Haven't been happy in a while
I’m always walking down the aisle
Can't trust my thoughts, my self
My mind is hell
Now whose number should I dial
Feel like my life's a fucking trial
I'm overwhelmed by my denial
Can’t trust my thoughts, my self
My mind is hell
You think it's just so black and white
I'm so afraid to close my eyes
Nightmares won't let me sleep at night
Laughter became my new disguise
Can't look nobody in the eyes
Wondering if I'm my own demise
I still feel low when I get high
Something is wrong and I don't know why ––

[Bridge]
Now it feels like
I've lost control
Here we go
Down that road
Lost my soul
I'm so cold
I don't know
Where to go...

[Verse 3]
See now I've come to realise
I was comfortable with lies
And all the pain I tried to hide
Can't trust my thoughts, my self
My mind is hell
All the days I wonder why
I'm unable to be fine
Drown my pain in all the wine
Can't trust my thoughts, my self
My mind is hell
My mind is hell
My mind is hell
My mind is hell
My mind is hell
My mind is hell
Hell