Hurting My Spine

[Intro]
(ABM be goin' crazy)
Real talk
I feel better than you, somehow
Straight up, guaranteed

[Verse]
Think about my journey
Think about my grind, think about the tables, how they start turnin'
Fell out with my man, he was too entitled countin' what I'm earnin'
Thinkin' of my Gram's, ain't want you to die, but I ain't want you hurtin'
Had to make a plan, now I'm finally feeling like I got a purpose
Ain't trying to be perfect, I'd rather show you my flaws and then I can show you my scars, I've been let down too many times, I built me a wall I had up my guard
I'm in a Van Cleef store and I'm swipin' my card, ain't checkin' the price of the charm
This bitch drop dead gorgeous and she lookin' nice on my arm, you know what I'm on
Movin' in silence, so niggas don't know how I'm comin', so niggas don't know what I'm doin'
I kinda be lost about it and I don't know how to talk about it
Don't even know what it was that caught their attention, but I got the shit in my palm
Ain't even know that my man had robbed our barber when I went to get me a line
Comin' from Vernon I'm puttin' that shit on my back, but it started hurting my spine
I know how it go, if I put in the work I'll be fine, I started with workin' the dimes
I'm in the varsity it was Celine, clean, mean it's worth every dime
I'm in the van with all of my niggas and we meetin' feins cause we had to grind
2015 and that was the year that I lost Reem, it fucked up my mind
Fucked up my heart, too many negative vibes is bad and fuck up my thoughts
I never had a problem with Coop, but it had been years since me and him talk
I used to think we was better than that, guess we never was that, and it wasn't my fault
I thought about you today, I was taking my chalk, you see me still makin' my mark
All of the niggas I started off with they was fading a way it was breakin' my heart
I'm never bitching and I'm never quitting and I'm never trippin', I'm playin' my cards
Even if I had to do this shit all by myself, you know me I was takin' it far
Take it to Marz, you know I'm out of this world and I'm minglin' right with the stars
Be who you are lot of these niggas they fraudin' and fakin' and fakin' they frauds
I had to walk road to the riches that shit wasn't easy, I'm feelin' exhaust
Look what I bought it ended up makin' me happy, so I didn't care what it cost
I was a pawn then I had turned to a boss but look at the shit that I lost
Look at the shit that I gained, I walked in Bottega, but remember me shopping at Ross
Chrome heart jeans, is mean, they clean, and they got the cross I got up to par
I'm in mirage and I'm bout to have me a ball and I'm bout to have me a ball
Bitches be tappin' me like can you give me a call and I was like baby girl naw
I'm stayin' private, I never crave the attention, and I never fuck with the blogs
Look how I did this shit independent with no label, I'm climbin', I'm right up the charts
I know the game is cut throat, it ain't for you if you got a heart
Listen, I'm givin' you pain, and givin' you heart, it's all from the heart
I was distraught when I lost my dawg, I feel like I'm falling apart
How they gonna shoot up the car dog when I'm in the car
This feelin' like it was game time we live in like no tomorrow
I had to give her my main line told her to give me a call
It's love and hate at the same time
It's love and hate at the same time
It's love and hate at the same time
It's love and hate after all
She said she got a new body she wanna show that shit off out in Bali
You should see how niggas copy, you should how many niggas wan stop me
Thurl nigga hero, like Rocky, I'm told em copy, copy, copy
I ran outta options I was thinkin' should I pull down the stockin'
I'm at the fight and I'm walkin' boots out, member the times I was boxin'
I remember seein' Kenan, he was undefeated, nigga I was watchin'
I was sittin', I was plottin', I had to find a way to get it poppin'
Then I got it popping, then that led to niggas pocket and watching
They told me to stop it, they told me let that shit go and I dropped it
And then it had happened again, I'm like why is money the topic
I use to have so many friends but I feel like they got outta pocket
I got a flight to catch I put on my sweats, I croced
It never matter the state, we playing it safe, my homie he glocked it
Bitch want me fly her to Houston, I flew her to Houston, I'm high as a rocket
I use to tuck in my boxers, soon as my mom found the work, she had-
Put all my stuff in the boxes, told me to leave, but I'm at the door, I was knockin'
Bitches they sayin' I'm toxic, told her to leave, but she want what's in my wallet
I never gossip, I never act like somethin' I ain't, u niggas imposters
I ordered pasta, it had sauce, the crab, the shrimp, the muscles and lobster
Abusin' the money, I gotta be careful abusin' the power
Fucked up that I had waited until Granny died, to give her some flowers
Fucked up that I was dealin' with so much, God, it was turnin' me sour
Think about all the nights the time the second the minute the hours
Think about all of the miles, I think about all of the tears and smiles
You know we united, my bro want to fight it, let's take it to trial
I'm wearin' KAPITAL, married to capital, I'm bout to walk down the aisle
Ask yourself where the fuck you think these niggas been gettin' they style?
Ain't ask for help, I did this shit all by myself, and I made Eazy proud
And it ain't no issue, but I gave it distance cause they ain't my crowd
I handle my business, I jus left a private dinner, it's at Tao
Way I was livin' was wild, but I had to face all the tribulations and they motherfuckin' trials
At the W, aye bring up some towels, this for all the niggas that's in denial
Stacking money and I'm letting it pile, rollin' 60, and I'm high as a cloud
It get tricky? And these niggas is foul, I'm in Ricky been that way for a while
I was in that bitch when-, c'mon