Hurt

I'm searching for an excuse
For all the things that I do
My problems coming in twos
Now I got two much to lose

I'm counting all of my funds
I'm throwing ones at the club
They show me nothing but love
She might even let me fuck

I'm writing all of my wrongs
Just to put them my songs
And then I do them again
Happiness don't last too long

I know they don't understand
I can't tell no one my plans
Can't even tell all my fans
This problems out of my hands

I panic 8 times a days
Don't like the games that I play
Now I can not close my eyes
I'm scared I might fade away

Tired of making mistakes
I fell in love with her face
And now she's breaking my heart
Something that I can't replace

And I can not run away
She's in my dreams everyday
I'm tryna numb all my pain
My feelings going to waste

I been this way since a kid
Thought maybe that I would change
But looks like I never did
And now I'm stuck on this page

I think I'm going insane
This stupid song that I made
Everything just sounds the same
Hype beat but talking bout pain