Humility

[Verse 1]
Dying vision, my vision is getting worse
Time ticking, I'm sicker and getting old
22 but I could see the future coming
Something like a doomsday, no chance cutting the cord
No clue what's waiting for me when my youth is said and done
Scared shaking over something, my adrenaline
At 100, no amount of any medicine
Could take away the fact that in my head I been a denizen
Pre-20, life was like a nightmare
Mind bed bound, worries lied there
Despair and shame always made a fine pair
Only count a few things on my fingers I carеd bout'
Fuck school, where he goin' whеre his whereabouts?
On the roof, he ain't tryna take the stairs down
Contemplated hopping but was stopped before the chance
That was 4 AM, damn, long nights feeling weared out
I'd make a martyr out myself before I got the help
Ones around me didn't give me that respect so why should I feel guilt?
Friends I would ride into the end with were never quite
Close as I thought that we was, that ain't fair at all
Dates hit me with the nope, when I'd share it all
Never hating on 'em doe, that's a fair ball
Got accustomed to my lonesome, but never telling no one
Fuck it though, the feeling there was paramount

[Bridge]
So what is there to prove? To do it for the name, anger held up from youth
Show 'em that you worth half a damn, and that's truth
Seeking visions of revenge, like a big fuck you
To the ones that'd walk on you, hit you wit the ghost
To the ones that were there for you less than you hoped
But this here been a joke, when it's all said and done I'd be still there alone
So what I gotta do? What I'm gonna do?

[Hook]
Humility, I feel defeat often
Looking for peace, the piece that my heart needs
Path incomplete but had to keep walking
Stabbed in the back, but fact is I'm the one who turned around
Humility, I feel defeat often
My therapy is this, so piss off son
Path incomplete, but got to keep walking
Stabbed in the back, but time to take the whole blade out

[Verse 2]
Dying vision but a bit better
Frost bitten, cold bodies in the cold weather
Defrost for the heart, hit the restart
Been the one who dug the ditches so I be the one to dig 'em up
I been apathetic, been a dick and barely feeling much
Both the hands are getting icky, really had to clean em up
All the can't's into can's, but they gotta understand
If you ever had a laugh, then you still gettin fucked
Biggest demon wasn't treating all the cuts
Love my baby, I would ring It with some luck
To the friends that I pushed away
It's my fault but I'm thankful for the memories made
Don't know just who I am yet
Many versions of myself but dawg you can bet every part is real
Seeing bliss and content
To the last to the end

[Bridge]
So what is there to prove? To do it for the name, anger held up from youth
Show 'em that you worth half a damn, and that's truth
Seeking visions of revenge, like a big fuck you
To the ones that'd walk on you, hit you wit the ghost
To the ones that were there for you less than you hoped
But this here been a joke, when it's all said and done I'd be still there alone
So what I gotta do? What I'm gonna do?

[Hook]
Humility, I feel defeat often
Looking for peace, the piece that my heart needs
Path incomplete but had to keep walking
Stabbed in the back, but fact is I'm the one who turned around
Humility, I feel defeat often
My therapy is this, so piss off son
Path incomplete, but got to keep walking
Stabbed in the back, but time to take the whole blade out