Hugging My Grudge

I have weapons and battle plans
But in my heart I know
I can't ever protect you from
Things I don't understand

And when I hold you in my arms
It scares me just to
Think that something so beautiful
Could just come apart in my hands

I've always been chasing rainbows
Staring out of classroom windows
I don't think I'll ever be happy
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge

I was too dumb to settle down
So I packed up and I left town
On a sunshine bus
Wondering where it all went wrong

On a flimsy wing and a prayer
I followed my heart everywhere
'Til I ended up
Right back where I started from

I've always been quietly dreaming
I don't know when I've been beaten
I don't think I'll ever be happy
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge

I've always been chasing rainbows
Staring out of classroom windows
I don't think I'll ever be happy
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge

I've always been quietly dreaming
I don't know when I've been beaten
I don't think I'll ever be happy
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge