How to Enjoy Life?

[Verse 1]
How to enjoy life?
I see no answer
I see only suicide
I don't deserve anything
I want to disappear
So I don't see your lives again
So I do not feel this pain

[Verse 2]
God spits on me from the sky
I laugh at myself with my life
I am drowning in my suicidal thoughts
No one can give me their hand to save my life

[Verse 3]
My footsteps on earth mean nothing
My life on earth is worth nothing
I was meant to suffer
And nothing can help me
Only I can help myself
But who said that I want to help myself?
I don't wanna live
I want to fucking die!

[Instrumental Outro]