How Many Times

How many times do I have to do it

How many times I gotta go through it

How many times I gotta make new shit

How many times do I have to prove it

How many times, How many times

How many lines and how many rhymes

How many bars and how many more

How many points do I gotta score

I am the kid with my hood up and hat that makes shadows to cover my face

The kid in the back of the room who don’t speak but make music to cope with the pain

You look around and you notice me

Get a glimpse then look more closely

You think I’m threatening but I swear that I am harmless, Mostly

A Borderline skitzo, handles shit on his own

Stomping in with Timbs on, I don’t fucking tiptoe

Had a couple friends but they went and fucking dipped though

I’m hanging up my past like a mother fucking flip phone

Closing all the doors and i’m locking em, emotion getting bottled up

I kinda lack a lot of love, I wrote a song but now i’m gonna wad it up

I work all fucking day but I am always fucking feeling like it is not enough

I have been working for years, but have yet to see much in my life that has changed

I get more depressed than I’ve ever been, but still have hope that it’s coming one day

Hooked on the process like heroin, it’s sounding better, man, use that as leverage

You using forgery, i’m using rhetoric

You will be dead in the water, and i’ll be a veteran

I’m gonna be here ‘til the day hip hop dies

Might not die a legend, but i’m gonna try

I’m standing my ground, looking fear in the eye

Flipping the bird as I enter the light

I’m on way up and got nothing to lose

I’m gonna be real, and stand by what I do

Shout out all the people who helped me get through

If it wasn’t for you I don’t know what i’d do

You picked me up when I let myself fall

Grabbed both my arms and you dusted me off

You are the people who got me this far

Breathed new life in me to conquer it all

(Breathed new life in me to conquer it all)

I finally feel like i’m doing this, making the moves with this music shit, it’s been a long road but i’m the one choosing this

I’m the one putting one foot right in front of the other pursuing this

You have spent so much of your time just putting me down, and pushing your doubts

Look at me now, look at me now, look at yourself and i’ll show you a clown

You’ve turned me into a monster, something more cold than I swear that I’ve ever been

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it because since I was young it’s something that I’ve never been

This is way I have not felt before

This differentiates me from the norm

Get on a beat you see my true form

An angry kid knocking down all the doors

Lifting my foot up, I’m kicking them in

Fuck your advice, dog i’m taking wins

Who the hell you know that’s sicker than him?

More vicious than Vick with a couple pit twins

I’ll take on any opponent, just put me inside and lock up the cage

I’ll be surround by corpses of artists, and maybe then they will remember my name