How Long?

[Verse]
They tryna kill us and fill us with this poisonous livin
Everything im learnin I'm givin if you listen I'm spillin my word
Spillin mo blood on the curve, another family hurt
Plus I've been dealin with my own demons I gotta be heard
Before they pick me apart hoping that I can burst
And reach the people from the block all the way down to the burbs
I be feelin like the older we age
We forget about dreamin cause we know we need to get paid
Come look inside my brain, what is wrong what it right?
Am I living life to my best ability let me fight
And wil anything I say gonna be lost in times
I know I can do better gotta reach a new height
Despite what anybody gotta say, all I really have is faith
Caught up in this vicious cycle, I might go n hide away
I can't take it, my spirit I can't break it, can't give it up
Rise above the doubt I gotta live it up I Live it up
Is it enough, will I survive, I rise above
Gotta do what I need to do, the power lies within you
Take a step and look at it all from a different view
Lately feelin like I’m far removed from society
Why they try to lie to me, takin a lot outta me
Have to be me fuck currency if it ain't settin me free
Is anybody hearing speak
Still a long a way, a long way
Working on my off days, my off days
Always, Givin the facts, takin it back it in time
Before I opened my eyes into the world of lies
Going back to very beginning when I was a child
Wanna feel the same happiness even if it's for a while
Gotta be gone gotta be gone this is how I feel
Don't know where to steer take it over from here
Off into another galaxy, another dimension
Wheres there no oppression, I can not not live with the tension
No more no more, I just can’t take it no more
I gotta keep it real cause I can’t fake it no more
It’s daunting, were all human and bleed
Different shades but can we open and see
The truth hidden beneath our skin
How can I live now listen
Am I in it for myself, can I make a difference?
Im trying to believe even tho nothing is certain
What if I don’t ever blow and it was never my purpose
Like can I, make a bigger impact without rap
Or save my sanity and say, fuck I’m back to writing
My flame igniting, I just keep on fighting
The darker side, my heart cannot compromise
The cards im delt, I gotta decolonize
Why do past leaders have to get shot and died
Someone tell me why peace is so hard to find
What more can i say, will it be lost in time?
Will this fall on deaf ears, can I make it more clear?
I thank god I’m still here, letting go of my fears
Will I reach the people, thats before I’m gone
Hoping these words carry on someone tell me how long?