How Is This Love ?

Verse 1 :
I don't really know how i feel
But i think it's starting to get too much
I don't even know if their love is real
Can't seem to leave my worries in the past
Trust me i'm dying to tell you all
What's on my mind
But it's tiring when i've done it all before
But you don't really mind
That i'm hurting
Yes i'm hurting
Hurting inside
Just want you to listen
Can't you listen ?
To what i'm thinking about
What you say really hurts
Yet you say you love me
Sometimes i feel like i'm just a curse
You're better off without me

Chorus :
You tell me i'm all those things i'm bad
Then wonder why i am feeling so sad
Don't even care when i cry
How is this love ?
How is this love ?
I'm not a bad person and this is not love
Blaming me for all of the things that i'm not
This hurts so much more
Than how you think it does yes

Verse 2 :
To anyone who cares yeah
Empty bottles
Holes in walls a messy conscience
I've got problems
And i don't think that i can solve em
But i wallow in the darkness
Thinking all these thoughts are harmless
Hungry for a better life
But come to find that i ain't starving
I've been hurting
Trynna see if life is worth it
Such a burden
Feel like i ain't got a purpose
I've been drowning in my sorrow
Trynna make it past tomorrow
I just want you all to listen
Cause i'm hurting yeah

Chorus x 2 :
You tell me i'm all those things i'm bad
Then wonder why i am feeling so sad
Don't even care when i cry
How is this love ?
How is this love ?
I'm not a bad person and this is not love
Blaming me for all of the things that i'm not
This hurts so much more
Than how you think it does yes