How I Want To

It's been a little while since my pen has hit the page
Finally found my way and made it up outta this cage
Wasted so much time back and forth inside my brain
Thought the liquor'd make it better all it did was warm my veins
Went through all the motions, took time to disconnect
Picked up on who was there and who didn't even check
On the low making moves, putting everything in place
Never felt so focused you could see it in my face
Put my trust in myself, silenced all the doubt
Building from the bottom, don't evеr count me out
Always had this in me, just nevеr had the means
Now I'm always in the lab, never in and out of scenes
I've been there, done that, I'm a few levels up
Top grad in my rap class, no need to measure up
I done prayed for everything that I'm blessed with now
I don't care who's on their way, I got next right now

I've been in here, I've been working
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to
Took patience, some waiting
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to
I've been in here, I've been working
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to
Took patience, some waiting
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to

Never been the type to go out and follow trends
Never been the one to claim they have a hundred friends
The smaller my circle, the less I have to lose
Everybody here solid, I don't have to pick and choose
So tired of the fake always tryna come between
Always got so much to say but never saying what they mean
I put this all together never seeing any blueprints
Now they all adding math like I asked for their 2 cents
Never hit a switch, just think I found my niche
Nobody cared before now they all on my bitch
Still watch what I do even when I stay away
The more attention gets paid the less attention I pay
You know I just do me, give a damn what they think
Cause at the end of it all it's gon' be me and my ink
I waited so long to be doing this here
2020 may be done but my vision's still clear

I've been in here, I've been working
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to
Took patience, some waiting
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to
I've been in here, I've been working
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to
Took patience, some waiting
But now I'm doing it, doing it how I want to