HOW I’VE BEEN

[Verse 1: Ridgy]
I’m kept up by the thoughts that I been havin’
I’m swept I feel abandoned
Left me in my psyche, more like a cavern
Tested like it’s litmus, God knows my time is passin’
Nothing I can do, gotta cause some more damage
Trigger on the pulse, I was shooting for the stars
Vigorously told em I was moving
Instinct left me bold, but I was finished
Truly scared, battlescars left bruises on my skin
Blue from all within
Withering away, all I can do is grin

[Verse 2: Ridgy]
I spent days on the ledge, like it’s Oldboy
I wanna rest but there’s no sleep for the wicked
I put blood in the ink, I’m committed
All of my memories collected, yet omitted
It’s like Memento cos I’d rather forget it Instead I
Let it get the best of me
Unnatural remedy
A recipe for some disaster
No empathy is left for me, breath is moving sharper
Left inside a trench, my mind is fighting itself
Desolate, I’m empty, I’m sick of finding help

[Verse 3: Mary Sue]
Yeah
You were sick of finding help
I was sick of finding hell
Why I'm stuck to the bottom so I figured, "Might as well"
Told my demons I'm gon' call them when my vices start [?]
When the past start to falter, and the passiveness is frail
Craving for the green like I'm munching on some kale
Desolate and stale
Locked up in my mind, I never wanted you to bail
Papa told me not to cry, cos' I gotta be a male
Expectations like a coffin, lotta pressure being nailed
Feeling all these textures, hear the music like its braille
Yeah, my soul is never up for sale
That's why I never fail
Yeah, my soul is never up for sale
Why I never fail
My soul is never up for sale
Why I never fail
Sue, sue