How I Feel

[Intro]
(Drumma Boy)
Yeah
It's how I feel, right
It's only me right
Ha
It's life, ha

[Verse]
I was fifteen, a Virginia nigga with ambition
Young but I envisioned fuckin' 'em bad bitches
Lived my life with no regrets
I tried to show respect, but you don't give it
I guess you don't understand winnin'
It might take me a lifetime to take it back
And it might take you a lifetime to know the facts
Yeah, just 'cause we different, don't mean we distant
And if you kill a man, ain't no way to bring him back
Yeah, they say it's mind over matter
But what we livin' for? What really matters?
Some niggas' silver spoon just on a platter
And other niggas is doomed just for disaster
All alone sleepin' in my bedroom
As I wet the sheets, momma gon' be dead soon
'Cause a man beat her, but he don't realize
She important to this family like a fuckin' heirloom
Yeah, a nigga still found his way out
A record deal came, that nigga played out
My mama livin' good, she takin' days off
And sayin', "Boy, all that hard work paid off"
Five hundred racks for a hour show
But ain't gon' ever do no sixty-minute interview
'Cause all you wanna do is twist my words up
And all I wanna do is flip my birds up
Kinda tipsy off that red rum, murder
I'm a singin' ass nigga, know you heard of me
Every day my clique stuntin'
Niggas talkin' down, but I'ma make 'em pick they words up
I done said all I had to say, what else?
Cock suckers low blowin' under my belt
Yeah, they hangin' from the tip, they tryna get a sip
Don't let them get a grip, I'm pissin' on them myself
Nineteen, a nigga went through a tragedy
Three years, a nigga just found a better me
Yeah, you might find another lover
But you always started with Breezy like the letter "B"
Nightmares feelin' haunted
Thinkin' do I really like this star shit?
Huh, because fame ain't freedom
And this diamond chain only mean they hold you hostage
Now I got a lot of offers
Tellin' me to wear their clothes and they wanna be my sponsor
But when a nigga fall off again, they be like, "Off him"
And then they gonna smile up in your face just like, "Awesome, great"
Wait, police and a thug cannot relate
I guess that's why this war on drugs is the debate
So I'ma keep on livin' my life from day to day
Learn from my mistakes