How I Been

[Verse 1]
'Member wakin' up in cold sweats
Hopin' that a nigga won't forget how to make it out through the night
Nightmares took a known rest
And turned it into runnin' from his demons to make it out through the light
The homicides in the middle of the winter, it was cold
Post-traumatic from the stress of the summer is in his soul
And, father, I've been tryna forget you, but I'm alone
Wonderin' if I was missin', would people still wanna know just how I've been? (How I)

[Chorus]
Look how I'm doin'
Would the people still wanna know just how I've been? (How I)
Or how I'm doin'
Would the people still wanna know just how I've been?

[Verse 2]
I've been pullin' up in Benzes
Listenin' to 50 Cent, talkin' of "Many Men"
Nigga, how I've been (How I)
Look how I'm doin', and I'm too influenced
Thinkin' 'bout my past, critiquin' how I was movin'
Mm, watchin' out for the crash, watchin' who finna laugh
As I try to be a man and tell my people how I'm doin'
That's how I've been, I don't even wanna punch it in
Maybe you should speak it from the heart instead of leavin' in the dark
And pointin' fingers, like, "A nigga see your hand"
Help a nigga if a nigga need a hand, that's how I've been
I've been cryin' out for someone help
But I'll be damned if I focus on myself
Mama, I need a belt
Whoopin' me was the only time you ever gave a fuck about anyone but your—

[Chorus]
Or how I've been (How I—)
Look how I'm doin' (How I'm doin')
Would the people still wanna know just how I've been? (How I—)
Mm (Look), and how I'm doin'

[Outro]
Would the people still wanna know just how I've been?
Mm, look how I'm doin' (Fuck these niggas, I don't really need nothin' else)
Would the people still wanna know just how I've been? (How I—)
Mm, look how I'm doin'
Would the people still wanna know just how I've been?