How Does It Feel (2002)

[Verse 1]
How does it feel, when they don't believe anything you say?
Always gotta show and prove yourself every single day
Man this ain't livin', nothin' but drama all through the week
And if they don't respect my words, why they want me to speak?
I'm feeling worse even though I put my family first
I shed tears 'cause I feel as if I'm closer to the dirt
Yet I won't be stressed out my mama buried and dead
Ain't got no parters cause my partners put a price on my head
Have you ever told a lie to make the drama stop
Watch the ones you love turn against you no more family pop
How does it feel to be the black sheep?
How does it feel to victimize yourself one time and forever more have to pack heat
Then focus on the choice of bad liquor 'proachin' fast
Sittin' around waitin' for death to come, watching time pass
My life, my life, falls under the wicked and sheist
I wonder where I gotta sleep tonight my nigga

[Chorus]
(How does it feel?)
When you can't make the pain stop
Walkin' in the rain so your tears can blend in with the raindrops
(How does it feel?)
When your key people's done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that
(My nigga, how does it feel?)
When you can't make the pain stop
Walkin' in the rain so your tears can blend in with the raindrops
(How does it feel?)
When your key people's done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (Uh-huh, uh-huh)

[Verse 2]
I coulda sworn I wasn't the only person on this earth
But it seems that I been one-deep ever since the day of my birth
I'm sick and tired of being lonely in this crooked land
People think I'm trippin' 'cause of my facial expressions but they don't understand
24 years old and used to frownin' daily
Tryin' to figure who was the friend and who was the foe you know it's 'bout to drive

Me crazy
Mama tell Jesus I can't handle the pressure
Look at the way they do me down here, my vision is Z-Ro on the stretcher
Can't I bleed in peace, won't y'all leave me alone
Like Makiavelli I close my eyes and picture home
Not the old city block but a place where it ain't no Glocks and it ain't no sin
No longer watchin' my back for the retaliation
How does it feel to wish that you was dead?
I can answer that cause many a night my pistol's to my head
But I'm so scared, my life, my life, 360 degrees of being addicted, stress, and

Enemies my nigga

[Chorus]
(How does it feel?)
When you can't make the pain stop
Walkin' in the rain so your tears can blend in with the raindrops
(How does it feel?)
When your key people's done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that
(My nigga, how does it feel?)
When you can't make the pain stop
Walkin' in the rain so your tears can blend in with the raindrops
(How does it feel?)
When your key people's done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (Uh-huh, uh-huh)

[Verse 3]
How does it feel when these bustas try to take yo' life?
Lord knows I don't wanna pull my 45
But see I must survive, nigga don't make me use my tool
Get some of that bomb green from Tom 'fore I lose my cool
How can I make it to the top I'm like a crab in a bucket
They got me hostile, I see my pistol, grab it and bust it
Nigga get off me, I don't love not one of y'all
I'm comin' for what ya owe me and killin' every one of y'all
Call me Caesar, kill them while they sleepin'
I'm grim reapin' busta never saw me comin' left him with his blood seepin'
I'm a soldier, recognize the sign of the times
It's either kill or be killed up in this stony life of mine
Can you feel it? The odds are up against a real nigga
How does it feel to see my blood spill my nigga?
My life, my life, feel like I'm runnin' out of time
Til' it's over catch me runnin' with my 9

[Chorus]
(How does it feel?)
When you can't make the pain stop
Walkin' in the rain so your tears can blend in with the raindrops
(How does it feel?)
When your key people's done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that
(My nigga, how does it feel?)
When you can't make the pain stop
Walkin' in the rain so your tears can blend in with the raindrops
(How does it feel?)
When your key people's done turned they back
Every family that I know is just like that (Uh-huh, uh-huh)