How Do You Know?

[Bridge 1]
I'm so confused with all your judgment and your actions
I'm over your betrayal - I just look at overreactions
What if I - just told ya how I feel, to get it off my chest
What if you're simply playing checkers in my game of chess

You think you know me, but you don't - i hardly know myself
I write to say that I need help - but I always misspell
Before I lose myself again, to this manic depression
Before you judge me, I will beg you: let me ask a question;

[Verse 1]
How do you know if I'm okay? How do you know I'm fine?
We try to smile and say hello, but deep inside we cry
It's always quiet when I pay, it's always me speaking
It's always mе against the world and I am hardly breathing

You call it bragging when I try to cеlebrate success
But I’m just tryna feel alive, you try to suppress
And now you're whispering too loud, your heads in the cloud
Don’t try to speak behind my back, just look at me now

[Hook 1]

How do you know: that I don't criticise myself first?
How do you know: that being mean: ain't gonna make it worse?
How do you know: that I dont hate myself for being me?
How would you know: that I don't wanna take - I try to give

What if I had a mentor, but he turned away from me
What if I'm still blaming myself and losing hope slowly
What if I also feel afraid and don't believe in luck
What if I look at myself and feel I ain't good enough

[Bridge 2]
Yeahh
Sometimes the hardest and the right thing is the same
Sometimes, I wanna give it all up, and just stay insane
They say that everything is great, but it's my great depression
Yehhh - Wanting to be first like an impression - creating pressure

Tryna stay alive, but no they say it's not enough: (Nope)
Coz I ain't famous and not rich - I need to LVL up. (Now)

[Verse 2]
What if i'm struggling to cope with my anxiety
I’m rioting inside, but pretend I'm not for society
What if I want mum to be rich, but we don't have a lot
And when you look at me - you see someone that I'm not

What if I'm working out today - coz I was bullied
And if I’d find a handbrake for fear: then I would have pulled it
What if I'm aiming for success, by working overtime!
But over time - I realised, my life was just a lie

[Hook 2]
How do you know: that I have friends who'll never give me up
How do you know: that I will never snap to fuck you up
How would you know: if I am lonely or I'm sad inside?
Or if I'm drowning on my own and there's no shore In sight

What if I'm scared to open up? afraid it's gonna hurt
What if I'm screaming out my lungs, but never being heard
What if I desperately need help, but trying not to say!
What makes you think: you're any different? And we’re not the same?!

[Bridge 2 Last]
Not feeling sorry for myself - hope is not a plan..
I need to keep pushing myself, to be a better man

I need to be a better friend - not over a phone
I wish I was a better husband, and I swear to learn …
I need my parents and my sister, I don't need a crowd!
I wonder if I've done okay and if I made them proud

[Hook 3]
How do you know: if I'm okay? How do you know I'm fine?
How do you know: that I ain't failing every single time?!
Why would you think I have no feelings and I never struggle?
We're all just pieces in this life - lost in a clever puzzle

What if you never understood me? - And my heart is bigger?
How do you know? That I won’t hurt myself or pull the trigger?
What if I'm running in a tunnel - but here is no light
What if I smile - but just to cover that I'm dead inside