How Could I Heal If I Forget?

[Verse 1]
If I recall I was just trying my best
I made an effort with the cards in the deck
In my twenty somethings trynna forget
It was success until I’m tight In the chest

I’m over
Deep breathes
These meds
The disrespect
I gave my all just to see it all swept in the mess
I go for years after years after tears in the floor
Fears that peers won’t be here anymore

Realizing that I’m breathing dead air
Who’s decided that’s fair
Whos the around that’s cruising round to care
Proof is in the fruit I picked a few to see if im there
Truth is in the few that’s pushing through don’t think that I’m here

Wipe away my tears they say To focus on the present day
Lord gone take my breath away hoping that that days today
Try to forget it trying to mend my wounds here
Looking around blood on the ground but who’s here?

[Verse 2] (Betsy Jo)
If I recall I was just trying my best (Mm Hm)
I made an effort with the cards in the deck (Mm Hm)
In my twenty somethings trynna forget (Mm Hm)
It was success until I’m tight In the chest (Mmmm)
Wound never scarred never truly went to far
Proofs in the fruit and duties of a God (Break down the walls for me)
Adolescence demanded my presence as an adult
Found a message inside my head it said it ain’t gone (Break down the walls for me)
Realizing that I’m breathing dead air
Who decided that’s fair
Cruise around amusement of my despair (Break down the walls for me)
Yesterdays dust in my lungs I can’t breath
Quoting hella scripts trynna fix where I bleed (Break down the walls for me)
But I don’t know where that is
Take a moment to deny them and to focus my lens (Break down the walls for me for me)
How could I heal if I forget?
You don’t forget you just suppress and call it blessed (Break down the walls for me for me)
Never truly heal
Never deal with your mess (Break down)
Reals never real til you feel your depressed
Reals never real til you feel why your stressed
Real never real til your (Hmmm)

[Outro]
If what you say is true then it won't matter
Well time will tell won't it
Yea i guess it will