House of Cards

It's late at night and the world's asleep
And I'm tryin' not to think
I take some pills 'cause my mind bleeds
I'm thinkin', "What is wrong with me?"
Because the only thing I know about honesty
Is every lie I've told that you believed
That I'm afraid to be alone
I'm afraid that one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed at the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed at my mouth full of lies
But I'm too afraid to come clean
'Cause my life's the flame in a house of cards

Now I can't look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killin' me
I try to disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I want to be myself again but I just can't
'Cause I'm afraid to be alone
I'm afraid that one day you'll find out

And you'll be amazed at the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed at my mouth full of lies
But I'm too afraid to come clean
'Cause my life's the flame in a house of cards

It's such a shame what I've become, after years of breakin' down
My whole life has come undone 'cause I'm tryin' to fake it all
I know that you love someone, but that someone isn't me
Or is this me?

(No!)

And you'll be amazed at the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed at my mouth full of lies
But I'm too afraid to come clean
'Cause my life's the flame in a house of cards

You'll be amazed
You'll be amazed