Hopeless Mind

My Ugly life
Iss 'bout time you die
My moves been backwards
This the finish line
Suicide, suicide
On ma hopeless mind
Suicide, suicide
In ma endless smile

If died today did I really serve ma purpose
Or did I live ma life in a circus
Was it right or the diverse
All i want is to live ma dream
But i watch all ma lights dim
Cause I'm stuck in the night mare
I don't see what i declared
I'm lost, froze and broken
I pray to God for repair
Still trynna make a banger
But ain't nobody replay
Oh God, tell me when do we
Open that good luck door
The devil done suck ma hope
The last sun ray at the end of the day
With no doubt thass who I wanna be
Surely ain't got time for no acts of hate
But don't trip if I catch feelings, still I might change
Everything change, look at ma rusted chain
Dirt on ma face but watchu expect
Reminisce on days when I ain't had a cent
Still made the day
Most left they dreams, most slit they wrist
But still I remained
Been on m best but you still want some change
Buh, wass the meanin' of change
If what I did in the past
Is always gon define who I am
I'm trynna be the lamb but damn
Nobody understands what I been through
Most of y'all picture what I ain't
I know i misrepresent and for that i repent
Spent ma days around people that rely on the plant to clear they mind

My Ugly life
Iss 'bout time you die
My moves been backwards
This the finish line
Suicide, suicide
On ma hopeless mind
Suicide, suicide
In ma endless smile

Thought we were born stars
Thought we were formed in the image of God
Thought we were bigger than the problems we got
I'm sorry thass not how it feels
I lost grip of the wheel
I prayed you take your will but how do i got these feels
Getting outta bed everyday and I'm like
Why do I try if my life is like a rollercoaster ride
I keep coming back from where I set about
Before I decide not to make it through the day
Tell me the grass is greener, tell me the days are brighter
Tell me the nights are clearer, don't know ma ups and downs
Burying ma mastermind, when should I wear ma crown
Of carryin' a fractured life

I'm running, I'm running from all I own
I'm runnin', I'm runnin' from ma own thoughts
I'm runnin', I'm leaving all I got
I'm runnin', I'm leavin' ma hopeless life

My Ugly life
Iss 'bout time you die
My moves been backwards
This the finish line
Suicide, suicide
On ma hopeless mind
Suicide, suicide
In ma endless smile