The beat for “Hope Turns to Doubt” is the first beat that Deca ever created himself. Deca described the process in an interview with The Word Is Bond, stating:
Yeah, the first beat I made is actually on my first album Top of the Line Bottom Feeder from 2004. It’s a song called “Hope Turns to Doubt....
[Sample Scratches]
All in all, its mankind's darkest hour
There is a glimmer of hope
[Verse 1]
This hard knock life left my eyes blackened and bruised
Cursing the superstar telling the youth "it could happen to you"
Masking the truth, dreams cracked in two pieces
Whole world at my fingertips but couldn't quite reach it
Let it all out, brush the weight of the world off my shoulders
All doubt thrown to the curb, there's no time for that
Now disregard escape the paradise, forget life brochures
No searching photo albums trying to find the past
Get so many ways to go from here, a rather large load to bear
Hand over here, the light of day will melt a cold stare
About time to crawl out of this dark crevice
Restless heart, set on this precious art epic
When the sun came out, I stared until it burned my retina
Left my hideaway, and let my instincts guide the day
No sure out, in times hope turn to doubt
But somehow I know, that everything will work out
[Hook]
Hope for the best, whole world passing me
Don't turn the other cheek and disregard the latest tragedy
Too many people surrounding, wander aimless
Doubtful that they're capable of making changes
Everything seems to shape shift so rapidly
Will it all fall into place, I guess we'll have to see
A work in progress, still got a long way to go
Out of touch with the once way gotta take it slow
[Verse 2]
Would you sell your soul for a hefty paycheck
A house in the 'burbs, a trophy better half with a fake chest
At the expense of others who suffer because of your plush lifestyle?
You already have? Ya damn right child!
This broken-promise land is full of Novocain addicts
Who love the feeling of not feeling a thing, very strange habits
When hope turns to doubt my eyes tend to focus
On the half empty bottle in hand, dwelling on the priceless moments
All the right components, with no means of getting over
Let it all out, brush the weight of the world off my shoulders
Been bruised and battered by those supposed to reach out
I'll say "fuck to police" till they beat my freedom of speech out
Blue and red flash and I'm just beyond their reach
Who's been led by blind obedience our culture teaches?
Lose the shred of passion you clutch, you left speechless
Lose your head asking the world to reveal its secrets
All obstacles are nothing but a minor glitch, Once you find your niche
And decide to quit, screaming "life's a bitch"
No sure out, sometimes hope turns to doubt
But somehow I know, that everything will work out
[Hook]
Hope for the best, whole world passing me
Don't turn the other cheek and disregard the latest tragedy
Too many people surrounding, wander aimless
Doubtful that they're capable of making changes
Everything seems to shape shift so rapidly
Will it all fall into place, I guess we'll have to see
A work in progress, still got a long way to go
Out of touch with the once way gotta take it slow
[Sample Scratches]
We've entered a new era
An era of fear and despair
That is the eternal optimist
Hope Turns to Doubt was written by Deca.
Hope Turns to Doubt was produced by Deca.
Deca released Hope Turns to Doubt on Sun Feb 01 2004.