HONEST WITH MYSELF

[Verse 1]
Is it morning or is it afternoon?
Light is blinding
The sunshine feels foreign on my face
And all I feel like is a mistake
Got an awful taste in my mouth

[Pre-Chorus]
Am I giving up too soon?
Wanna get up but I can't seem to muster up the strength
My sanity is crumbling to waste
And a solitary question remains

[Chorus]
Am I honest with myself?
Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror
That's scaring me now half to death
Am I honest with myself?
Can I admit when I need help?
When I'm still lying in bed at 3pm
Saying I'll get up when I'm feeling well enough
Am I honest with myself?

[Verse 2]
Am I broken?
I used to feel alive
I'm just numb now
I wish I could fill this empty space
Let anger or sadness take its place
'Cause it's better than feeling nothing at all

[Pre-Chorus]
I need somebody that I can call
Someone to tell me that it's okay
That I just need some serotonin in my brain
But am I brave enough to say

[Chorus]
Am I honest with myself?
Am I telling the truth to the face in the mirror
That's scaring me now half to death
Am I honest with myself?
Can I admit when I need help?
When I'm still lying in bed at 3am
Hoping to fall asleep and never wake up
Am I honest with myself?

[Bridge]
I don't want your pity
I don't want you love
I just wanna be alone
I just wanna be alone

I don't want your pity
I don't want you love
I just wanna be alone
I just wanna be alone

I don't want your pity
I don't want you love
I just wanna be alone
I just wanna be alone

I don't want your pity
I don't want you love
But don't you dare leave me alone
Don't you dare leave me alone

[Chorus]
Am I honest with myself?
That I'm lost and afraid but I need to have faith
It's ok if things don't always make sense
Am I honest with myself?
With any hope that I have left
I've gotta try to be brave as I get up and pray
That maybe someday I will feel well enough
If I'm honest with myself