honest

I have this daily fear I've lived my best, and there's nothing left to come
Like these constant notions I piece together don't fuck with me enough
Is it the self esteem? Or the overwhelming selfishness in my blood?
Or how I settle down in past mistakes to mask what I've become

Ooooh
I lie awake
Ooooh
I lie awake
I lie awake
I lie awa-

At least I'm honest
Fuck the things you promised (I lie awake)
These thoughts engraved inside me make me vomit (I lie awake)
At least I'm honest (I lie awake)
Fuck the things you promised (I lie awake)
So don't judge me for these pills inside my pocket
At least I'm honest