Homesick

[Hook]
I been up and down
I been all around
Tell me, when will I
Be found?
(x2)

[Verse 1]
I stay chasing them dreams, nigga
No sleep, nigga
Cause I know I got the most to prove
I need atonement, dude
Gotta get my mind right
Through them long nights
Ain't got time for these local dudes
Am I a joke to you?
Nigga, I’m just doing what I'm supposed to do
I got a whole squad, and they love me too, yeah
None of that fake shit y'all would do
My home’s down in that fucking rabbit hole
Cheshire cat always telling me "no"
The red king tryna take my damn soul
Tweedledum's always off on his own
Now I'm here, and I'm just as okay
Painful memories don't get in my way
When in my zone, I just forget
That my dumbass almost murdered that kid
Just in my mind, I'm alright
I forget about it all
I know that I might have been toxic
And, for that, I took a fall
But believe that I'll rise, my nigga
Nobody's ever gonna stunt my growth
Yeah, no, I’m not Ventus, I’m more Roxas
Can't forget about that other oath

[Hook]

[Verse 2]
I done so much bad shit
All on that old mattress
Crazy how the black kids
Are the only ones acting batshit
What I did was unforgivable
To make it out now would be a miracle
You might say that I’m being cynical
But the fact of the matter is that you niggas don't know
I been doing wrong
Out bad
CTRL + V, CTRL + C, close tab
I was having fun, but I didn't know that
Come the next month, I'd be walking like a nomad
Going nowhere, making no progress
Come October, I’d become a second option
Come November, I'd become a better friend, though
Come the next year, I'd learn how to let a friend go
And I had to let a friend go
Had to be my best friend, though
I was speeding up the tempo
And he threw a couple elbows

[Hook]