Home To My Soul

I wish I
Got to kick it with Riky Rick 'fore he passed
Fantasize about smoking with him and then we'd laugh
About how I got next
Finessing corporate checks and execs
Gucci loafers with no socks just to flex
Eish!
I wish I got to meet him in person
Even if the flame that's deep inside wasn't burning
Maybe he was crying out but we didn't hear him
Cotton eaters never die that was always the sermon
He was hurting
Angels is watching demons is lurking
Looking to go deep and penetrate beyond the surface
Only person with the answers is thе person that we worship
My Father passеd on Valentines I know he ain't deserve it
Nobody's perfect
Praying for the Lord above to search us
Mind and body desolves
Spirit glittered in gold
Universal control
And manifesting unfolds
Paradise is a state of mind home to my soul

For me I wanted to go out young, like Tupac
I wanted to die young like Tupac
I wanted to, die like a Kurt Cobain
Suicidal thoughts is not anything new to me
It might seem like you know
Now it's time for every rapper and every artist
To talk about having anxiety and being suicidal
My nigga
I can, I can, I can testament
To people that I, I, I know what suicidal thoughts are

I wish I was in Durban when it happened
Wish I had a pen so I could rewrite all the chapters
If she felt love then she didn't have to vanish
Maybe he wouldn't have sacrificed himself to anguish
I can't imagine, having to tell your daughter her daddy is gone it's savage
Pulling the trigger, the plot is thicker, you start to panic
Maybe it wasn't worth it, but too late you've the damage
Cold blood, no love, so scarred
Story of our people
We wanna do good but subject ourselves to evil
How could you sleep at night knowing what you did was lethal
Mass country platinum plaque, hope you soaring with the eagles
Or maybe you at home, paradise is a throne
Living in our hearts, never die, never gone
Fela in Versace, the Supamega show
I pray that all the demons in your past leave you alone

Far away
I wish I could go
Somewhere safe
I need you so close
Call your name
I wish you could show
All your face
I need you so close

So you know I, I, I've changed
I'm also not fearful of anything now
I feel like I'm, I'm more, more ready now
For the fame and for the pressure
For the person I have to be than I've, than I've ever been because now
I feel more humble
I feel more understanding
That this music AKA thing is not everything