Holiday Break

[Intro]
Seen a lot of storms and a lot of rain
Seen a lot of smiles trying to cover pain
And I can't deny it
I can't disguise it
There's no way to hide it

[Chorus]
I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)
From all this pain
All I know is these thoughts won't go away
I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)
From all this pain
And I'm trying, trying to find a way
(I'm about to break)

[Verse 1]
Dear Christmas past, I'm writing about your trash
Remember nights crying
My family was stripped to rags
Instead of getting together
We were simply getting severed
They said you'd make it better
I hope you reading this letter
I know you that you're not
I know that you lie
I know you say that you hold 'em together
But then you fold when you flop
I'm gone
I don't even wanna sing that song
I hear you lying through your teeth
And that won't bring back Mom
She celebrating somewhere else
I put the pain on the shelf
And roll the green in an L
That's a Christmas Tree
Light it up
Trying to get my peace
I can't find it
Temporary fix that weed
The next day comes then it's back to square one
And all these squares only gunnin' to kill my lungs
Inhale, exhale, pain when I cough
Trying to bring myself back up but I still fall
Sincerely, me

[Pre-Chorus]
I can't deny it
And I can't disguise it
There's no way to hide it
I need a Holiday break

[Chorus]
I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)
From all this pain
All I know is these thoughts won't go away
I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)
From all this pain
And I'm trying, trying to find a way
(I need a Holiday break)

[Verse 2]
Dear Christmas Present
I'm writing this cause I'm better
And I don't need a sedative
I hope you get this letter
And I know that the future might see me this year
And hopefully I won't be covered in my tears
But until then let me tell you where I been
Yeah it's been a few years since we talked
Since then I been movin' on
I found hope in something greater than songs
Something greater than all this money and the fame and the drugs
It's God, and that may seem odd
Cuz I know when I wrote you before we were at odds
But listen real quick
What I found is when I called upon the Christ
He gave forgiveness, love, hope, life
I don't need another gift, no spliff, no memory or nostalgia
Could make me feel like I do now
So now I'm on ten, aww yeah the Christ took my failures
And gave me hope that never drowns
I'm walking on water now I feel like Peter did
Well I guess that's a frozen lake
I do live in Michigan
Hell is not an option
Cause I got Him
Rather He got me
And now I drop hymns
So I'ma sing one now
I was down and out
But Christ took me and He washed away those stains

[Post-Chorus]
That's a Holiday Break
A Holiday Break
Only He can come and take away your pain
That's a Holiday Break
A Holiday Break
Oh find Him, find Him, find a way
(Break)
Sincerely, me