Holding on to Nothing

It's like I'm holding on to nothing
Like I don't even have myself
It's like the thought is crashing through
My lungs and I can't scream for help
And as I'm holding on to nothing
It's like there's no way out from here
I never thought I'd be the one to try and
Outrun my own fears
You know it never felt easy pretending when I knew I had lost my way
All I knew was the darkness
All I felt was the emptiness as it tried to consume me
So I kept wearing crown that just kept weighing me down
Heavy headed I fell to my knees
And every time i found a light I could keep
I just kept pushing and pushing until I drowned it in what was me
It's like I'm holding on to nothing
Like I don't even have myself
It's like the thought is crashing through my lungs and I can't scream for help
And as I'm holding on to nothing
It's like there's no way out from here
I never thought I'd be the one to try and outrun my own fears
So I gave in to the pressure
And started to forget who I use to be
Felt like the weight of the world had pushed me deep underground
And the earth had me surrounded
I'd rather burn bright for others
I lost the spark keeping me alive
I pushed myself until the light had burnt out
And all the hope had been lost
And I had given up on myself
It's like I'm holding on to nothing
Like I don't even have myself
It's like the thought is crashing through my lungs and I can't scream for help
And as I'm holding on to nothing
It's like there's no way out from here
I never thought I'd be the one to try and outrun my own fears
Even though I was holding you up
I confess that it was you that was pulling me under
It was you that was bringing me to my knees
It's like I'm holding on to nothing
Like I don't even have myself
It's like the thought is crashing through my lungs and I can't scream for help
And as I'm holding on to nothing
It's like there's no way out from here
I never thought I'd be the one to try and outrun my own fears
And as I'm holding on to nothing
It's like there's no way out from here
I never thought I'd be the one to try and outrun my own fears