Holding Back

[Chorus]
Holding back the years
Thinking of the fears I've had so long

[Verse 1]
Wishing for direction, wishing on my gifts
I’m seeking for redemption, God take this guilt
I’ve been stumbling through life feeling all traumatized
Watching my hateful actions had left me ostracized
Ever since I left your will, I feel out of line
Barricaded, lost for words, 31 and out of time
My character is measured by circumstances if I’m weak
Keep me strong as I carry on if you see deceit
I’ll rectify, clear my path identify
With your word can’t centralize
How my pride incentivize
My sins , my path been denied
Reason, I let spirit guide
My heightened guidance recognize
The devils out here synchronized with a plan
Mislead the man to only seek demise
And we fallin' for it, how can I just lead the blind ?
When I still need to free myself
Seeking for a place of peace to find
Struggle with mental health
Need some ways to build myself
Need some ways to heal myself
A line of defense against the wicked just to shield myself
Letting things go, on my ego to reveal myself
That’s why I’m come to you because I need some help
Cuz I'm

[Chorus]
Holding back the years
Thinking of the fears I've had so long

[Verse 2]
Haven’t felt great since seconds from greatness
Wanted to quit I’m In the studio pacing
But I’m trying to be patient
At the drawing board, staying up late and writing lyrics down hell I’m even practicing basics shit
I’m on the clock
I’m trying to please
Everybody else except myself I need
Some love that is why I look above
I need your healing touch
Cause lately I doubt trust
The process, so I dissect everything then fuss
I can’t accept failure man that shit ain’t in my blood (yuh)
The past seems to really have a hold
As I look inside my present genes I know
I wear my Heart on my sleeve, my future clothes/so now here I stand as I close yo

[Chorus]
Holding back the years
Thinking of the fears I've had so long
Holding back the years
Thinking of the fears I've had so long