Hold On

Hold On:

[Verse 1:]
Like a window I see you
Down with no purpose I be you
More than anxious under the surface
You're too young to be feeling this worthless
I wonder what could've birthed this
Truth be told, I pray your innocence was perfect
Down your hurting

[Chorus:]
Damn, I just got to hold on to me, I just want to be free

[Verse 2:]
Why do I feel you, I know it's the real you
Lost in the world
Heart sunk into a place I cannot chase
But wait maybe if I blow my brain
The pain will go away
Don't care if nothing's the same
Was about seven-teen sitting hillside
Thinking about ending my life
No gun, No Noose, No Harm, I'm outta sight
Out of my mind, I fantasize my closure
Before you know
You start to let yourself go
Could be murdered and still no one dials the cell phone
I've turned real ones into strangers
My absence is no danger
Once I'm gone
I was proven wrong, all along
So before you, I write my sins

[Chorus:]
Damn, I just got to hold on to me, I just want to be free

[Verse 3:]
Speaking for no definitions
More peripheral visions of my soul-eroding
Premising too much where am I going
Perhaps I'm missing bare decisions I'm blowing
Know if my recognitions are ambitions
From reminiscing, tell the old me
I miss him
Sum up, I still owe G
A real OG
Some of me won't me feel the cold see
I accepted nobody knows me
It's over so I'm overseas
Just tryna let my mind free
Old like China
You'll find struggles
Behind them
Stubble and loneliness
Bring trouble only if it's a last resort
Call them escorts
But not the affordable
Bed-rock bottom
Towards the man in the mirror
Gun at his head but it's only clearer to me
Passed just like the seasons
Run it back again
If I last let it be a reason to celebrate a great\

[Chorus:]
Damn, I just got to hold on to me, I just want to be free

[Verse 3:]
So many fishes in the sea
How far till I be 18 bitches deep
Maybe my issues are not reliefable
10 years later now I'm un-peak-able
Speaking to some people
It's bad meets evil
When your life is an image you cannot receive control
Even though you could keep your evenings low
Testimonies never retracted when spoke
Seen a joke kill
Swallowing your own guilt
Maybe that's the reason for all this contemplating games
Where nothing remains the same
In a world acting like it's a shame
But even the king of pop will lose their fame
What I'm saying is not meant to hurt you
It's a virtue dedicated to life
An insight I hate to admit
Even ourselves we'll start to forget
There ain't no given
Do this one right, that's right
We're only living once
That's why I'm dedicated to these words I'm spitting
Hold On
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