​high on christmas

[Verse 1
Lights on the roof hang low
Snow falling out the window
Surrounded by people
But I'm still alone
It's the time to feel grateful
So beautiful and painful
I wish that I was able
To feel at home

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm holding in tears
I don't wanna ruin the party
But I'm colder this year
And everybody seems to care that
I'm older this year
But no one seems to care about me
I'm holding back tears

[Chorus]
So I'll be high on Christmas
I can't write a wish list
All I want is just to feel okay again
Feels like something's missing
Wanna blur my vision
So I'll take a hit
And pretend

[Verse 2]
Say hi to everybody
They have an image of me
I know that I can never be
Numb sitting by the fire
Room singing like a choir
I'm feeling like I should just leave

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm holding in tears
I don't wanna ruin the party
But I'm colder this year
And everybody seems to care that
I'm older this year
But no one seems to care about me
I'm holding back tears

[Chorus]
So I'll be high on Christmas
I can't write a wish list
All I want is just to feel okay again
Feels like something's missing
Wanna blur my vision
So I'll take a hit
And pretend

[Outro]
High
I'll be high
I'll be high
I'll be high
I'll be high