Hidden Thoughts

The image that you showed me stays ingrained in my mind
Now you got me feeling like you leaving me behind
Shoulda never started, I don't know if I'm ready
I thought I'd make that money yea thought I'd have that bready

Boy was I wrong now I'm doubting on the daily
Listen to my music and I feel like going crazy
Wonder where I went so wrong, wonder what I did
Wonder why I'm 18 but I still feel like a kid

All I see is diss tracks and dudes who got the clout
If I can spit like them is what I'm worried about
Never mind the fact that they never like my beats
Putting everything together feels like I'll drown in defeats

Could I one day bring the shine back to my city?
Maybe bring a foreign chick who looking really pretty?
I really couldn't tell you if I got the fire in me
I just really want that call from G.O.O.D Music hiring me