Heroine

Do you remember me cause I don’t even know myself
I’m poisoning my body trying to forget this living Hell
Mental health is suffering I can’t keep on covering
All the scars & signs can't focus on recovery
I’m stuttering I can’t keep up with my own lies
I don’t care who I hurt I just need to get high
If you look into my eyes you can see that I’m lost
Everybody tries to save me but I’ll fight at any cost
I try to stop but I’m selfish I’m weak
Losing everything family friends appetite & sleep
The paramedics know me I’m famous VIP
Waking up to crowds around me every time that I OD
And I don’t even know where to call home
It’s all my fault I’m left with nothing all alone
God are you there can you hear my call?
Shit I’d ignore me too watch me laugh as I fall

Hold me God when I fall
I’m looking for any direction but I’m lost at the sight of my own reflection
Can you hear when I call
Or will I face rejection I don’t wanna be lost looking for a connection

I got the shakes I need my next fix
Another pill another line another drink another hit
I’m an addict if I stop I get sick
The pain is so intense I gotta kill myself to live
Limits don’t exist I can’t resist temptation
I say I’m gonna quit but I’m lost in translation
Got a bad reputation known for being a hypocrite
Relationships never last I’m toxic
Stripped left with nothing so I got nothing to lose
So I use to feel something any substance I’ll abuse
I choose to live this way I hate it degrade it
No sunshine in this in this darkness the colors have faded
And I don’t even know where to call home
It’s all my fault I’m left with nothing all alone
God are you there can you hear my call?
Shit I’d ignore me too watch me laugh as I fall

Hold me God when I fall
I’m looking for any direction but I’m lost at the sight of my own reflection
Can you hear when I call
Or will I face rejection I don’t wanna be lost looking for a connection