Here Alone

[Verse 1]
Yeah, feels like I'm at the bottom of hell
Got a lot of fake people out here wishing me well
Friends or foe, I don't know, it's getting harder to tell
Got my walls up, regardless I'ma stick to myself
I just deaden all my feelings that I had and I felt
It's until you hit the bottom, people come out and help
And that's if they help, people only care for themselves
The only W they take is when you're taking an L
Tell 'em farewell, yes for real, hope they know it
Kinda like I did my ex, I left her broken
I can tell she's been lying, I didn't show it
Until she said that one lie, then I exploded
That only showed how easy she can lie
And how deceitful she can be when she's cries
I see evil in her eyes, they say the devil tends to be in disguised
As the person you keep close in your life
I had to kick her aside (yeah yeah)
Moving on, move along, swear I been through it all
You ever feel like your mind is a cell
And you're walking through hell
And you don't know who to call
Who would you call
Cuz I tried calling, no one's answering
Not my soul, not my friends, not even my family
No more asking for help, that's the last from me
Rather be alone, then have these snakes stand with me, damn

[Chorus]
I'm finally charged up
I spent the last year moving with my guard up
It's deeper than music I don't care for stardom
It's me myself and I, you don't wanna cross us
Y'all just stay out of our way, that's perfect
Looking for the answers still, I'm searching
Just cuz my heads down don't mean I'm nervous
It means that I'm working
You can tell, you can tell I

[Post Chorus]
Can't see me quitting as an option
Relaying on myself that I got this, woke up
Feeling grateful, glory to God
I know he's got me on his watchlist, hold up
Tired of waiting, no patience
You gon' see me rise, that's for a fact
I'm bringing all the real rap back
Spilling all of my feelings
Getting my life on track, let's go

[Verse 2]
On a journey that I travel alone
Some join, some left, now I'm all my own
Those who tried to reap the benefits, I let 'em go
I need real ones around me that are chasing our goal
There's a high standard, that I continue to hold
It's separates me from everybody I know
I don't associate with nobody, I can't and I won't
I'd rather do me while they keep doing the most
Broke out of my lows, & now I'm just rising again
At least think so, cuz I tend to spiral again
My mood swings got me fighting against
Myself, cuz I feel like my life's so on the edge
And I always pledge the next day's gonna get better
I wake up, feel the same, throw my hands up whatever
Sometimes you gotta move when your life isn't together
Cuz the ones depending on you, need you way more than ever
And they need me, so I'm give it everything that I got
In this wicked industry that's everything that I'm not
A bunch of sell outs, that will do anything for a shot
To get famous, they'll stomp you to their way to the top
These phony ass blood suckers needed to be stopped
The only relationship I want is between me and God
And through him, it's all possible, I cannot be stopped
He's the reason I get strength when I'm against the odds & I'm

[Chorus]
Finally charged up
I spent the last year moving with my guard up
It's deeper than music I don't care for stardom
It's me myself and I, you don't wanna cross us
Y'all just stay out of our way, that's perfect
Looking for the answers still, I'm searching
Just cuz my heads down don't mean I'm nervous
It means that I'm working
You can tell, you can tell I

[Post Chorus]
Can't see me quitting as an option
Relaying to myself that I got this, woke up
Feeling grateful glory to God
I know he's got me on his watchlist, hold up
Tired of waiting, no patience
You gon' see me rise, that's for a fact
I'm bringing all the real rap back
Spilling all of my feelings
Getting my life on track, let's go