​help yourself

[Intro]
(You can drop dead for all I care)
B-I-N-G-O, and BINGO was his name-o

[Verse]
I just be copin' with feelings
I don't enjoy my ideas
I don't like hurtin' my mental
But I keep on goin' 'cus all of my fears
Let me slow this down
Let me spell this out
I'm not happy with myself a lot
It's showin' now
I be speakin' straight
My internals hate
My external reality
I'm shattering, like glass I break
I can't help myself
But that's the only truth I grab
I wish something else could save me
Yet I'm all I have
Switch up the flow, like a river
I just be speedin' it up, make you shiver
Hopin' that soon I can reunite with the one
That I be missin', I hold her too dear to my heart
I just keep grabbin' on
But I keep slippin', it's getting too hard
To hold onto this, I'm fallin', shit
Please catch me or I'll start to call to another
I couldn't even go to my own mother
About all my hardships, the shit that I struggle
My dad just heard I've been going through rubble
They beggin' me, wishin' I'd tell them my troubles
But I feel guilty for that
Don't wanna burden nobody, in fact
I been helpin' my friend with the same fuckin' issue
I tell him what I think is right, what he should do
Yet I cannot do the same thing for me anyway
I hope the future will bring me some better days
Either way, I just keep prayin' that she gon' come back
If she doesn't I think that my heart gon' turn black
(I think that my heart gon' turn black, black, black, black)
My heart heavy, I'm unsteady
I think I need to be medicated
I can't sleep thinkin' of her presence
I can't cope, lemme learn a lesson
I'm strugglin' to get up
And keep my eyes open, they stayin' closed
I don't want to go up to nobody else
They don't need to know