Help

I'm down on my knees but I'm looking up
I need me some help don't have any luck
I want to give up this shit gettin' tough
But I gotta get it this shit is a must
See I got a family and I got a girl
I gotta look out for the people I love
See I gotta buzz but I need the bucks
Without the money they quick to judge
As stupid it is as stupid it does
I need me a plug like I'm sellin' drugs
Don't need me no hugs I need me some help
I cannot do this shit all by myself
I got no one else if you can relate
You know where I fell see I got a play the cards I was dealt
The money we chase and this is a race
If you on the way I go get the belt or go get the strap
I'm one of the dopest don't listen to that
Go sit in the back or chill in the front
I swear I need me a million up front
I go hit the blunt relievin' the stress
I got some people believin' I'm next
I'm chasin' my dream it's illegal to rest
My life is a mess this could be a test
All that I have is some bad bitches with all of the ass
That don't even grab cause I'm on a mission that's all for the bag
My thoughts in the pad cause I want it bad
Now I want a Jag go talk to my dad cause he wasn't there
He already died lets leave it at there
I am just making sure we is aware
As fly as a bird my feet in the air
I have to flee when I need me a pair
Got me some clothes that I don't even wear
They talk about me and I don't even care
Been givin' back and they don't even share
That's why I hate when they try to compare
I'm at the top when they climbing the stairs
They fly on a plane I fly in a Lear
My mind is insane think I need a beer
Maybe a shot I told the bartender to get me a drink
This Henny I think
The bitch I got with me look pretty in pink
Might call up Ryan to get me some ink
I'm goin' through pain I want to feel more
Live in the city it feel like a war
I'm watchin' blood spill out they pores
Thought I could take it but not any more
Fuck it I'm rappin' use that as an outlet
Cyclones I'm trapped in don't got me no outfits
My mama stopped giving me the allowance
It feel like I'm sinking I know I'm not drowning
I been alone having suicide thoughts
But that's not the way that he died on the cross
I'm supposed to focus and act like a boss
It's not a win when you at a loss